Saturday, February 16, 2008

tired...


of living, of working, of planning, of dreaming but not being able to accomplish, not knowing what to do next, not knowing what i want in deed...

is there a '27 year' depression? well i am on it:) turned 27 last week and realized i am not a fresh graduate anymore, becoming a professional with many responsibilities at work, many things to do, decide, plan bla bla. realized i have been doing the same shit for money which i was so promising to myself to quit one day. realized i havent moved even a step further the way i wanted to, (well moved from one company to another but it doesnt count), realized i am still in the middle of nowhere between the paths to ordinary family life and the 'follow your dreams' kind of life. realized i cant stop the days go by me and cant stop the feeling that they are wasted. realized i am still waiting for the dark-skinned guy to decide on my next step in life. feeling late for 'something', i dont know what. realized i am not even buying new furniture because i dont feel permanent. want to be permanent actually?

realized i am not writing in spanish anymore;)

yes there is a 27 year depression:)

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